If you hate sised-ness, dun read.
I thought losing my class rep position would take my mind of the burdens and responsibilities I used to have, but instead it has made me ponder more. Right now i feel so empty, so useless. No cca, no class positions, no more titles to feel responsible for. I have nothing to look forward to, nothing to feel proud of now. I am but a worthless student only coming to school for the sake of his own studies, which he failed badly for. I am nothing.
I urge you people to be thankful for the things you have now. If you have a cca, you should cherish it and not skip it just for the sake of boredom. If you have a post in your cca, you should be grateful for it and live up to its responsibilities, and not grumble about the time wasted in doing what you ought to do. At least you have stuff to accomplish, and to be proud of. And always treasure the time you have with your cca mates. What if one day you would lose the cca that you have, and would have to spend every wednesday reluctantly at home all by your lonely self, while the rest of your friends are having fun together in the cca laughing and bonding together?
I'm not sised, but this is still my blog. I typed whatever i want.
There is no emotion; there is peace.
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Outbreak of rage.
Did he need to use that immature hurtful sarcasm on those few who took their stand to ask questions? Extremely low EQ for a politician. Rude and uncalled for. Disrespectful to the whole college, i might say. I dont even think he was even willing to come in the first place, as he spoke to the people questioning him in an utterly impolite manner, as if he wanted to leave immediately. This is a Q&A session, for crying out loud. How would you expect people to come forward to ask questions regarding our current affairs, if you tend to just blast the people back with indefinite answers? He just bloody came to prove the K family that 'evility' runs in the family. If that was the case then he proved us right.
Sorry, i say sorry to the people who had to witness my rage after the thing. I should had suppress the anger, so as to not hurt anyone. If i did please tell me and i will apologise to you ten times, for i hate myself venting my own frustration at others. I have tried to control my anger ever since sec2, when i almost (or did i really did) overturn someone's table for squirting water at me.
And i should not be angry anymore, since it's not my fault at all but that unworthy politician's, and i will not be stupid enough to stay mad at his stupid attitude cos its his problem. i laugh at his face.
But why was i angry? I finally realised. He blasted and embarassed Mr JiWen in front of the whole school. Being a taiwanese he was brave enough to speak on behalf of us Singaporeans, and he had to struggle with his english. And his reward? To be spat back by an imbicile with a condescending attitude who thinks his sarcasm is so damn cool. Mr JiWen is probably the bestest teacher of all my 12 years of education. He doesnt scold, not a single petty, scornful reprimanding word will you ever hear from him. And he is probably feeling like a dumbass right now. Injustice. Stupid politicians.
Im no Prince so no need to be excited.
Firstly, Indonesia's history does not include having kings of any sort so it is impossible for anyone to be a prince. Like duh..
My grandmother's (father's side) father, that makes him my great grandfather was the governor of Bangka Island, somewhere near the Riau Islands, Indonesia, around the time my grandma and grandpa was born. It was somewhere around 1925. That's all.
And my grandpa was just the manager of some old cinema called Capitol or something lidat. And i watched the cartoon version not some R rated film so shaddub Biao.
And the bottomline is: Im not a prince, i didnt watch R films at 3years old and my grandfather did not own Cathay Cineloosure.
The above is stictly for blog readers who want answers. Dun spread to the world and risk twisting my history pls. Only to close buddies perhaps.
Its the past. I blame no one.
I didnt prepare for a tutorial, so i decided not to turn up. It is my very own decision, not spurred by the leads of others. I know it's wrong to skip lessons, but i feel my reasons stand. Anyone else can attend the lesson, even if they said they will not or are reluctant earlier. And of course i wont feel betrayed. Its my loss, not others.
And it's my own damn fault i got kicked out. Why must people still think that i should have stayed on in the club? I feel I deserved the boot, and deep inside your hearts, i know you feel the same way, just that i am your friend and therefore you would want me to stay. I am reckless, no doubt about it, and i like to do stupid idiotic stuff that will put myself in danger. I love you odac guys too much, therefore i had to accept the devastating fact that i had to leave. Or i might hurt someone by now.
Do i despise the guy that kicked me out? Do I blame the one who should have spoken? And do i stop bonding with odac pple? Of course not. Its the past, and i bear no grudges, not a single one. In the first place, it is no one's fault at all. When things happen, it just happens, it's just whether it happen to you or not. I appreciate the concern. But no point crying over spilled milk. I wanted this thing to past by me, and it has. So i hope others will also look ahead.
Fly me to the moon.
My family just love to travel. Not that we are rich or any thing. We just feel that it is worth the expense to travel overseas to enjoy ourselves and gain lifetime experiences rather than to spend money on material goods that will soon age and become obsolete. You dont see me having expensive gadgets, living in landed property, nor having a comfortable car do you? But i've been to places. And im proud. The greater knowledge is better than material affluence.
Dun really want to boast. So i will just state the places i've been to, and not elaborate on how great they were.
1991: Thailand; Phuket.
1996: Australia; Sydney, Brisbane.
1997: Thailand; Bangkok, Pattaya.
1998: Sentosa; This year we werent too ambitious. I suspected it was my lousy PSLE grades. =P
1999: Korea; It was my first winter.
2000: Thailand for NCC jungle trip.
Europe; Germany, Switzerland, France, Belgium, Holland, England. Second winter.
2001: Malaysia; Penang, Langkawi.
Japan; Third winter.
2002: Turkey; Fourth winter. And it snowed.
2003: Thailand again for obvious reasons.
Malaysia for cruise.
I will not state my Johor Bahru trips. Obviously i cant remember..
Dont envy me. You can beat my travel record if you wanted to. There is still time. Ahahaa..
My next ventures (if i have the money next time):
-Israel. Number 1 dream destination.
-Egypt, to see the pyramids and cruise the Nile.
-United States, solely for the Grand Canyon and Universal Studios. Disneyland can goanddie.
-Italy, for the Sistine Chapel, the Leaning Tower and Venice.
-Africa, for its beauty outshines the danger.
By fifty, i will see the World. Muahahaa. At least i dream and aim to. If you dont believe me, then lets meet again in 32 years.
Uncooperative???Rebellious???Me???
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hola, Méjico!
My class did mexico. I think the banner painting thingy was rather fun, but i felt they should have provided the paint. The person in my class who was supposed to bring the paint brought poster colours. How Smart is that? We ended up borrowing paint from other classes, and managed to get black, yellow and red only. Hah. Using out incredible impromptu last-minute-success skills anyway, we managed to complete the banner, and it had many different colours on it! How pro is that? A professional tip: Mix black with yellow and a bit of newspaper, that will give you green!
Just had NS med checkup. Later live concert. Bye for now.
Go SA~..
Never been to such an exciting match for ages. Those who know me knows that soccer dun really make me, and neither do soccer matches, so when i say this match was exciting, i really mean auto butts-off-your-seat kind of exciting. We were on the defending champion's home ground, and were outnumbered by home supporters, but we WON! And they said they were the best. "IF SO WHAT WILL THAT MAKE US?"-joel. Bestest? More best? Mostest Besterest! MUaHahAha!
And for those who missed the match, its really ok. Its not the finals yet anyway. I believe we can emerge Champions this year.
A probable answer?
If you are wondering about the Passion, the part where satan carries a baby, i might have an answer.
Satan was carrying his 'baby' dearly, to portray the mocking of Jesus's father-son relationship. He was trying to tell Jesus that during the peril that Jesus was going through, his father, the Almighty God, was not there to bring him out of misery.
To put it in words, satan was saying, "Look Jesus, I carry my son and love him deeply, but what about you? Where is your so-called Father in heaven, who claims to love you? If your Father truly loves you, would he put you in this sorry state?" Of course, satan did not really had a baby.
This is what I figured, with help from my sis. Arguments anyone?
Sorry Joel..blame ziyuan!
I wont describe this picture. Leave it to your imagination. AHAHAHA
Jesus loves you.
Went to watch The Passion of the Christ at Lido. Having watched it on dvd already i expected no further impact during the second viewing, but i was wrong. The gruesome scenes were amplified 5 times, and i could really see clearly the torn bleeding flesh, and blood spurting and dripping. Shall not further emphasize and make you all nauseous.
Discovered a flaw in the show with alex. Jesus prophesized that before the rooster crows peter will deny him 3 times. But there was no rooster crowing.
Although the show was meaningful to me, i thought it was overhyped. I really think if a non-christian were to watch the show, they will find the non-violent scenes boring. The show was really about 'how Jesus died' rather than 'why Jesus died'. Viewers of the show really have to have a basic understanding of the last hours of Christ, so they will comprehend the entire show, without dismissing it as a 'meaningless violent movie'. But i will encourage people to watch the show anyway, and let them realise how Christ suffered for the sake of our salvation.
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But He was wounded for our trangressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chatisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed." ISAIAH 53:5, NKJV
Strumming the wood.
Stayed over in school yesterday just to play an acoustic guitar. Didnt like my own classical guitar at home cos the neck was too fat. hah. But its nylon strings probably wont snap so easily though. Sorry Alex. heheheh. I promise to pay for the string i killed.
Time after Time, Eva Cassidy
Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights,
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after sometimes
you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you have said
And you say, go slow
I've fallen behind
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost you can look, and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting
Time after time
Time after time |
After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows, I'm wondering
If you're OK
You say, go slow
I fallen behind
The drum beats out of time
If you're lost you can look, and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I will be waiting
Time after time |
